Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Poem I found
The Midnight stars are shining
on a lone and silent grave,
Beneath where sleeps the one I love
and whom I could not save.
You bode no one the last farewell
You could not say goodbye.
You were gone before I realized
and only God knows why.
Oh God, please take this message
To the one I love above
Tell her how I miss her
and give her all my love
Monday, December 13, 2010
The wreck on highway 109
A drunk man in an Oldsmobile they said had run the light
That caused the six-car pileup on 109 that night.
When broken bodies lay about and blood was everywhere,
The sirens screamed out elegies, for death was in the air.
A mother, trapped inside her car, was heard above the noise;
Her plaintive plea near split the air "Oh, God, please spare my boys!"
She fought to loose her pinioned hands; she struggled to get free,
But mangled metal held her fast in grim captivity.
Her frightened eyes then focused on where the backseat once had been,
But all she saw was broken glass and two children's seats crushed in.
Her twins were nowhere to be seen; she did not hear them cry,
And then she prayed they'd been thrown free, "Oh, God, don't let them die!"
Then firemen came and cut her loose, but when they searched the back,
They found therein no little boys, but the seat belts were intact.
They thought the woman had gone mad and was traveling alone,
But when they turned to question her, they discovered she was gone.
Policemen saw her running wild and screaming above the noise
In beseeching supplication, "Please help me find my boys!
They're four years old and wear blue shirts; their jeans are blue to match."
One cop spoke up, "They're in my car, and they don't have a scratch.
They said their daddy put them there and gave them each a cone,
Then told them both to wait for Mom to come and take them home.
I've searched the area high and low, but I can't find their dad.
He must have fled the scene, I guess, and that is very bad."
The mother hugged the twins and said, while wiping at a tear,
"He could not flee the scene, you see, for he's been dead a year."
The cop just looked confused and asked, "Now, how can that be true?"
The boys said, "Mommy, Daddy came and left a kiss for you."
He told us not to worry and that you would be all right,
And then he put us in this car with the pretty, flashing light.
We wanted him to stay with us, because we miss him so,
But Mommy, he just hugged us tight and said he had to go.
He said someday we'd understand and told us not to fuss,
And he said to tell you, Mommy, he's watching over us."
The mother knew without a doubt that what they spoke was true,
For she recalled their dad's last words, "I will watch over you."
The firemen's notes could not explain the twisted, mangled car,
And how the three of them escaped without a single scar.
But on the cop's report was scribed, in print so very fine,
An angel walked the beat tonight on Highway 109.
Monday, November 8, 2010
A Cardiac Event (Rough draft for now)
Monday, October 4, 2010
God's Paramedic
Which must always come to pass.
He hoped his uniform was clean,
He'd gotten dressed kind of fast.
"Step forward now, paramedic.
How shall I deal with you?
Have you always turned the other cheek?
To my church have you been true?"
The medic squared his shoulders and said,
"No Lord I guess I ain't,
cause those of us who wade in blood,
can't always be a saint.
I've had to work most Sundays,
and at times my talk was tough.
And at times I've been violent,
cause the streets are awful rough.
But I never took a penny
that wasn't mine to keep...
although I worked a lot of overtime,
when the bills got far too steep.
And I never passed a cry for help,
though at times I shook with fear.
And sometimes, God forgive me,
I wept unmanly tears.
I know I don't deserve a place
among the people here.
They never wanted me around,
except to calm their fears.
If you have a place for me, Lord,
It needn't be so grand.
I never expected or had too much,
But if you don't I understand."
There was silence all around the throne,
where saints had often trod.
As there medic waited quietly
for the judgment of his God.
"Step forward now, paramedic.
You've borne your burdens well.
Walk peacefully on heavens streets.
You've done your time in hell."
Why God made Paramedics
An angel appeared and said, "You're doing a lot of fiddling around on this one."
God said, "Have you read the specs on this order?
A Paramedic has to be able to carry an injured person up a wet, grassy hill in the dark,
dodge stray bullets to reach a dying child unarmed,
enter homes the health inspector wouldn't touch,
and not wrinkle his uniform."
"He has to be able to lift three times his own weight.
Crawl into wrecked cars with barely enough room to move,
and console a grieving mother as
he is doing CPR on a baby he knows will never breathe again."
"He has to be in top mental condition at all times,
running on no sleep, black coffee and half-eaten meals,
and he has to have six pairs of hands."
The angel shook her head slowly and said, "Six pairs of hands...no way."
"It's not the hands that are causing me problems," God replied.
"It's the three pairs of eyes a medic has to have."
"That's on the standard model?" asked the angel.
God nodded. "One pair that sees open sores as he's drawing blood,
always wondering if the patient is HIV positive."
(When he already knows and wishes he'd taken that accounting job)
"Another pair here in the side of his head for his partner's safety.
And another pair of eyes here in front
that can look reassuringly at a bleeding victim and say,
"You'll be alright ma'am when he knows it isn't so."
"Lord," said the angel, touching His sleeve, "rest and work on this tomorrow."
"I can't," God replied.
"I already have a model that can talk a 250 pound
drunk out from behind a steering wheel
without incident and feed a family of five on a private service paycheck."
The angel circled the model of the Paramedic very slowly.
"Can it think?" she asked.
"You bet", God said.
"It can tell you the symptoms of 100 illnesses;
recite drug calculations in it's sleep;
intubate, defibrillate, medicate, and continue CPR
nonstop over terrain that any doctor would fear...
and it still keeps it's sense of humor."
"This medic also has phenomenal personal control.
He can deal with a multi-victim trauma,
coax a frightened elderly person to unlock their door,
comfort a murder victim's family,
and then read in the daily paper how Paramedics were
unable to locate a house quickly enough,
allowing the person to die.
A house that had no street sign, no house numbers, no phone to call back."
Finally, the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek of the Paramedic.
"There's a leak," she pronounced.
"I told You that You were trying to put too much into this model."
"That's not a leak," God replied, "It's a tear."
"What's the tear for?" asked the angel.
"It's for bottled up emotions,
for patients they've tried in vain to save,
for commitment to that hope
that they will make a difference in a person's chance to survive, for life."
"You're a genius!" said the angel.
God looked somber.
"I DIDN'T PUT IT THERE" He said.
Author Unknown
Friday, August 13, 2010
EMS POEM
Sorry, if we woke you in the middle of the night,
But someone in your neighborhood was fighting for their life.
Sorry, if we block the road and make you turn around,
But there's a bad wreck with people dying on the ground.
When you see us coming, we hope you'll understand
Lets us have the right-of-way, someone needs our helping hand.
Sometimes a person is choking, sometimes a broken leg,
Sometimes a heart stops beating
And when we get there, it's too late.
So if you see us crying, when we think that we're alone
You'll know we had a "bad one" and were feeling mighty down.
You ask us why we do it?
"How can you watch a child die?
It's never very easy, but we'll try to tell you why.
We don't do it for the money; you see, we don't get paid.
We don't do it for the glory, but for the life that might be saved.
Somewhere deep within us, our souls are crying out.
We are here to help our neighbors in their hours of pain and doubt.
God gave us something special, to help us see you through,
We do it because we love you, and care about you, too.
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Stars
“Perhaps
they are not stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our
lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are
happy.”
Friday, August 6, 2010
Drowning
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
It's okay to cry
"Be encouraged. God sees your tears. Cry them, wipe them, feel them, but don't let them stop you. Its possible to cry AND walk." -Kelly Minter
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Another day
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Kitty
Last Night
I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying, You found it hard to sleep.
I meowed to you softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea,
You were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today, Your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today, You tend it with such care.
I want to re-assure you, that I'm not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house, as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said " it's me."
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there.
It's possible for me, to be so near you everyday.
To say to you with certainty, "I never went away."
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew...
In the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you.
The day is over... I smile and watch you yawning
and say "good-night, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out...then come home to be with me.
To Love Again
Oh what unhappy twist of fate
Has brought you homeless to my gate,
The gate where once another stood
To beg for shelter warmth and food?
For from that day I ceased to be
The master of my destiny,
While she, with purr and velvet paw
Became within my house the law.
She scratched the furniture and shed
And claimed the middle of my bed,
She ruled in arrogance and pride
And broke my heart the day she died.
So if you really think, oh cat
I'd willingly relive all that,
Because you come forlorn and thin
Well don't just stand there - come on in!I will always love and miss my Kitty Precious Rip-July 12 2010
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
On the edge
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Butterfly
There were may butterflies in one area of a flower, all different from one another, but bleed the same also die the same. One butterfly wanted to get to know another but the other butterfly was many of colors in which treated the other badly. The butterfly which had no color flew away very sad. Knowing this feeling in life, she knew the best place to be is in mother's arms. Which the sad butterfly went, as the mother explained that all other in the world have different outlooks on new things in life, and that no matter what's been said or the nose of the other in the air. Just remember they are the one's lacking something in their life. Now go and play my beautiful butterfly. I can't pretend these tears are not overflowing steadily. I can't prevent this hurt from almost overtaking me. But will stand and say goodbye. For you will never be mine until you know the way it feels to fly. Spread your wings and prepare to fly for you have become a butterfly. Fly into the sky and if you should return to me we were truly meant to be. So spread your wings and fly butterfly. When you love someone so deeply they become they become your life. It's easy to succumb to the overwhelming fears inside. Blindly I imagined I could keep you under glass. Now I understand to hold you, I must open my hands and watch you rise.I have learned that beauty has to flourish in the light. Wild horses run unbridled or their spirit dies. You have given me the courage to be all that I can be, and I truly feel your heart will lead you back to me. When your ready to land. So flutter through the heavens beautiful butterfly.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Tired of doing nothing all day
Anthoer poem
Sorry if we woke you in the middle of the night but someone in your neighborhood is fighting for their life. Sorry if we block the road and make you turn around but there's been a bad wreck with dying children on the ground. When you see us coming you'll understand. Let us have the right of way someone needs a helping hand. Sometimes a child is chocking sometimes a broken leg. Sometimes a heart stops beating, and we got there to late. So if you see us crying when we think we are alone you'll know we had a "bad" one and were feeling mighty low. We don't do it for the money - you know it's not much that we get paid. We don't do it for the glory but for a life that might get saved. Somewhere deep within us our souls are crying out "We are here to help our neighbors in their hour of pain and doubt." God gave us something special to help us see you through, we do it because we are needed and we care about you too.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Broken Heart
Paramedic Poem
And the Lord said, "Have you read the specs on this order? An EMS provider has to be able to carry an injured person up a wet, grassy hill in the dark, dodge stray bullets to reach a dying child unarmed, enter homes the health inspector wouldn't touch, and not wrinkle their uniform."
"They have to be able to lift 3 times their own weight, crawl into wrecked cars with barely enough room to move, and console a grieving mother as they are doing CPR on a baby they know will never breathe again."
"They have to be in top mental condition at all times, running on no sleep, black coffee and half-eaten meals. And they have to have six pairs of hands."
The angel shook her head slowly and said, "Six pairs of hands...no way."
"It's not the hands that are causing me problems," said the Lord, "It's the three pairs of eyes a medic has to have."
"That's on the standard model?" asked the angel.
The Lord nodded. "One pair that sees open sores as they're drawing blood and asks the patient if they may be HIV positive," (when they already know and wish they'd taken that accounting job.) Another pair here in the side of the head for their partners' safety. And another pair of eyes here in front that can look supportively at a frightened person and gently explain that their spouse of many years has departed this life."
"Lord," said the angel, touching his sleeve, "rest and work on this tomorrow."
"I can't," said the Lord, "I already have a model that can talk a 250 pound drunk out from behind a steering wheel without incident and feed a family of five on a private service paycheck."
The angel circled the model of the medic very slowly, "Can it think?" she asked.
"You bet," said the Lord. "It can tell you the symptoms of 100 illnesses; recite drug calculations in its sleep; intubate, defibrillate, medicate, and continue CPR nonstop over terrain that any doctor would fear...and still it keeps its sense of humor. This medic also has phenomenal personal control. He can deal with a multi-victim trauma, coax a frightened elderly person to unlock their door, comfort an assault victim's family, and then read an article in the daily paper about responders being too slow to locate a house (a house which had no street sign and no house numbers.)"
Finally, the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek of the medic. "There's a leak," she pronounced. "I told you that you were trying to put too much into this model."
"That's not a leak," said the Lord, "It's a tear."
"What's the tear for?" asked the angel.
"It's for bottled-up emotions, for patients they've tried in vain to save, for commitment to that hope that they will make a difference in a person's chance to survive, for seeing an accident victim walk again, for the family time they will miss while serving the community, for life."
"You're a genius," said the angel.
The Lord looked somber. "I didn't put it there," He said.
Motorcycle Down
The start of My Paramedic book
This is the question I ask myself everyday working as a paramedic. It's supposed to be a heroic job. I mean saving lives. But do we really save anybody or do we scar ourselves. The wounded taking care of the wounded. Will i ever forget what I saw today. A man laying in a wash face down with blood draining from his head. The worst part is I wanted to see it. Does that make me morbid? Maybe but isn't everyone in this field.. My partner was just as interested. We tried to take pictures but who wants to see that. We do but we already did we were there. But the question I really want to know is did he see us? Maybe he was a ghost standing on the bridge watching us pull his broken body away from the water that potentially washed away his soul.
Being a paramedic is a busy job it's a long job its grueling and we miss meals and miss sleep and we miss our families. We spent hours sitting in parking lots and in hospital bays. I cant tell you have many times I hear everyday you are on bed delay. Can you imagine sitting in an er for 3 hours while your patient who has toe pain and whines and demands treatment. Oh the headache. Sometimes you just want to say shut up. But we cant cause we care and it is our job. But sometimes after you watch somebody die you don't care if someone stubbed there to last week. You want the day to end. Then it gets worse when you get that call 30 minutes before your off time and its for a trauma. You know your going far and you know it will be a mess. You also know you will pick up the pieces. But who will pick up your pieces when you potentially pass out of sleep deprivation. Just kidding. I only work 12 hour shifts.
Most the time I work with the same person everyday. Everyday for 12 hours in the cab of a van. Sometimes you get lucky and get a good partner. Other times you work with one of satan's demons. Will they drive to fast or to slow? Sometimes I wonder how I get there alive or get there at all. I try to have patience I don't have a lot but I try. But when I hear that same song on the radio for the fifth time cause its there favorite its takes everything not to scream or shoot them.
Tell me what you think of this as the start of a book